Ya know, in all my life, all I ever wanted for my son was for him to have great parents. I don't think that is too much to ask either, since alot of kids do get exactly that. But I wanted Nathan to have BOTH parents be great and love him more than life. I guess I wanted Nathan to have the kind of Dad I had, and for me to be a better Mama to him than my Mom was to me. That's pretty much all.
But I guess sometimes despite good intentions, and despite what people act like, that just doesn't happen, no matter how much you may want it to. I am put between a rock and a hard place in this situation, and have to make a choice. And I have to keep in mind that the choice can't be what I want, it can't be about me being angry, or anything else. It simply has to be about what is best for MY SON.
Decisions to make and I am SO torn.
The way I see it is sometimes we have people that come into our lives to fulfill a certain purpose and once that is done they leave. I think that if he wanted to be in Nathan's life then he would be. I say you give him the opportunity to be in Nathan's life by letting him know what is going on. (Nathan has a dr. appointment at 11 am...you are free to come. ) Other then that...I say you live with your baby the best you know how. You don't have to plead, beg, cuss, yell, nag, or anything else. Just leave the door open...if he wants to be there...then he will be...if not then you have the answer you were looking for. You have to protect Nathan...but you don't want to be the reason he does not have access to his dad. Your ex...has that choice to make.
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