Lies, lies, more lies, and finally, a confession and apology....

Well, we have been following his "plan" for how to continue to work on us, but still divorce yada yada. He now claims the next day following what happened, he was going to fire his attorney. Honestly, after being lied to SO MANY TIMES, I dont even know if I believe even that at this point. So basically, here is what happened. I go to his house, and spend the night with him. We make love, but afterwards, he falls right to sleep, while I cannot sleep no matter how hard I try. I get up, surf the web, and check my email. I find emails from Nathan's Early Intervention Therapist asking if his eye had strayed since he was born, or if it developed over time. I honestly don't know, and can't remember. I know Blaine has newborn/just after birth pictures of Nathan on his phone, so I pick up to look, so I can email her back. Upon opening his pictures, the FIRST one I see, is a picture of him hugging another woman that I have never seen before. There were about 4 or 5 more, just pictures of her. I sat there in absolute shock for probably close to a half hour. I couldn't believe my eyes.....That is the one thing I NEVER would have imagined I would have to worry about, or even suspect. I had absolutly no idea that I should even be concerned about something like this....More later. I think I'm gonna go cry now and need time to calm myself.