Will I ever be ok without him?

So I have been reading this website most of the night. It is a website meant for those who's spouses want a divorce, and it talks about all of these things you should do to try to help. At this point, I would give anything to stop feeling how I am feeling, so I figure it is worth giving it a try. And for anyone who wants the link, here it is.
http://www.divorceinfo.com/lettinggo.htm
So, here goes.
The first step is completely opposite of what I want to even think about right now, or what I expected it to be, when I am trying to move on. But as I said, I promised I would go through this entire process, if it will help me to be o.k. without him. It says the first step is to "celebrate my marriage" and go through this list of questions.

1. What made you fall in love with him/her?

When we first met, I fell in love with him for a lot of reasons. But mainly, it was how sweet he was to me, and how he would write poems for me, and send me sweet, make your heart melt love letters, and open the car door for me, and basically be this sweet, gentlemanly man. 

1. What are the things about your spouse that you really admire?

I admire how he makes Nathan laugh and giggle. Most of the time, I can't get Nathan to laugh nearly as hard as he can. I admire how he used to be the man that wanted to provide for his family no matter what, and would get up and go to work everyday and never made excuses for not going to work.

1. What does your spouse do (or did your spouse do in the past) that made you feel really good?

He used to write these really sweet love letters, and randomly send me sweet texts, and would always send me "Good morning" texts along with wishing me a good day. And he used to write love poems about me, and give them to me. It always never failed to make me feel appreciated, and loved, and lucky to be his wife.

1. What do you like (or did you like) about yourself when you were with your spouse?

I liked how I took care of him. How I turned into a nurturing woman when I met him, because he brought out those feelings of how I liked taking care of other people, and using that nurturing to show them how much I care.

1. What will you miss the most when you and your spouse are no longer together?

Honestly, I will miss what USED TO BE. Not what it has been these past couple of years. I will miss how it was when we first had Nathan, and how he used to help me, and change diapers, and cook, and do these things to help me on his day off. Now though, he is unemployed and he did more for me when he only had 1 day a week to help instead of 7days. I will miss the sweet, caring, and thoughtful man that used to send me texts and letter so sweet they would make me tear up. I will miss cuddling with someone at night, and someone to have inside jokes with. I will miss having someone there to help me bring in groceries, and someone to go to the grocery store for me when Nathan is sick. I will miss having someone else here period, because in the months that he has left, it has been a really lonely life....