I may not love the man he is now. As a matter of a fact, I very much dislike the man he is today. But the man he USED TO BE, is what kept me hanging on. The man that used to send me sweet things, just because he had a kind heart. The man who sent me roses just because. The man who sent me goodmorning texts. And randomly would tell me I was beautiful, especially when I didn't feel it and needed it the most. The man who laid beside me as I cried ALL night long when we lost our first child, and who even helped me shower, and even brush my hair afterwards when I was so weak from blood loss that I couldn't stand without being dizzy.
I honestly don't know what happened to that man. I LOVED that man with everything in me. How could it be such a drastic change? What went wrong, and what happened to make him be like this? So cold, and mean-spirited when he used to be the sweetest man I knew? It makes me really sad to think of that man, because I haven't seen that man in a really long time in my husband....
Anyway, here's an example of the man he used to be. He sent me this on our wedding day.
Hey. I justed wanted to wish you a good day tomm. I know the last couple of days have been more than pleasant. I'm sorry about all that. We both were just clashing. I still love you though. I want to spend my entire life with you. You make me so happy.



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